Looking at you now I can tell that
You and your new relationship ain't going well
There's no reason your name should come up on my cell
Unless you're unhappy but that shouldn't be the case
'Cause you said he was the one
Baby yes you said you were in love
When you left me you said that you wouldn't be coming back
Remember that but I never agreed
I hate to say it but I told you so
Told you if you left that you were gon' be miserable
Guess he don't do it like me
Or else you wouldn't be running back to the past
It was you that left me
I hate to say it but you know I'm right
Every time you're up you're calling for me late at night
But now you ain't got me tell me where you gon' be
'Cause I can't take you back no my heart won't let me
Girl you know he can't touch like I do
I don't see you trippin' or flippin' over his moves
It don't take a genius to see he ain't that dude
But you let him back
You don't know what was on when you said
You said he was the one
Baby yes you said you were in love
When you left me you said that you wouldn't be coming back
Remember that but I never agreed
I hate to say it but I told you so
Told you if you left that you were gon' be miserable
Guess he don't do it like me
Or else you wouldn't be running back to the past
It was you that left me
I hate to say it but you know I'm right
Every time you're up you're calling for me late at night
But now you ain't got me tell me where you gon' be
'Cause I can't take you back no my heart won't let me
You fell on hard times it seems but you ain't getting no sympathy
No baby not from me 'cause I told you should never leave
See you chose this road so you got to go it alone
Remember I told you so
I hate to say it but I told you so
Told you if you left that you were gon' be miserable
Guess he don't do it like me
Or else you wouldn't be running back to the past
It was you that left me
I hate to say it but you know I'm right
Every time you're up you're calling for me late at night
But now you ain't got me tell me where you gon' be
'Cause I can't take you back no my heart won't let me
I remember a time when you used to make me laugh. I remember a time when you used to make me smile. I remember a time when you used to make my day heady, just by being around. But today, I remember those memories with revulsion rather than delight. Isn’t it sad?
We both know the reason for the change of heart. I need not announce it to the whole world. For months, I had kept my silence. For months, I had tolerated your pretense. For months, I had contemplated on the right course of action. Well, I’ve finally decided to give it to you straight in the gut.
I tried. And God is a witness to that. But you have continuously refused to accept the fact that I no longer want you in my life. You’ve tried-rather exasperatingly, I must say—to bring me back. But I’ve told you once before. Why are you making me say it over and over again? That when I leave. I never come back.
You’ve tried humor. And strangely, even sarcasm. You’ve tried Good Samaritan acts. But none have worked. Well, let me tell you it’s time to stop. Write me off your books now. I’m a lost cause. Save your time and energy for loftier endeavors. Move on with your life.
If you feel you have sinned, ask forgiveness from God. On this earth, only justice can be had. But up above, God grants mercy to those who ask. But remember, I am not God. So when you pick up the phone, don’t call me. Call God. I cannot grant you what you ask.
Let’s not throw away the past, I agree. But let’s not pretend, either, that nothing of fatal consequence has happened. You see, this is what I find infinitely revolting. I don’t find selective amnesia the least bit amusing. Besides, did I forget to tell you that I have the memory of an elephant?
But you said it yourself, remember? You said that women never forget. Well, I presume that when you said these words, you were speaking from experience.
Perhaps, that’s where you slipped. The voice of experience lulled you into a false sense of security. Cashing in on your seemingly external, potent charms and my bottomless well of magnanimity, you sailed on recklessly through troubled waters and wishfully thought you could, without incident, dock safely. But you were wrong; I am really more inclined towards sorcery than sainthood. And you were losing your touch.
You said you want to change your life. Well, go ahead and change it. I wish you well. Fix your life. Take responsibility for your actions. Admit to your mistakes. Stop seeking excuses for your misfortunes. Grow up. Stop lying to others as well as to yourself. Confront the vile ugly truth. Look at it squarely in the eye. Embrace it. Especially if it’s about yourself.
It will be my greatest joy to deliver your soul to God. Who knows? Maybe, I could save my soul in the process.
But I cannot come back. Hong Kong may have returned to China but this global event will not color my decision one bit. Accept and respect that. It’s time to lose those reunification fantasies into the deep, blue sea. The game is over. We both lost. Let’s take our losses now and bow out gracefully. Let’s be civil. Even friendly. But let’s not pretend to something more that’s nothing there.
I’m sorry I have to do this. But I believe I gave you enough time to make a graceful exit. I’ve waited long enough. You cannot fault me for my patience and politeness in the months that have passed. But it was the words of a mutual friend who finally pushed me to this decision. He said that you probably would never leave me alone till the day, in your face, I would actually throw up.
Knowing how squeamish you are, I thought, perhaps, this was the better way. I hope I am right. I thank you for the good things you have done for me in the past. I apologize for being so cross. I tried other ways—gentler and more civil but they did not work. As such, I am compelled now to give it to you straight in the gut.
di ko rin alam kung ano ba talaga ang nangyari eh...gusto kitang makausap pero wala ka naman na yatang balak pang kausapin ako...bigla kang nawawala ng wala man lang paalam..sino bang matutuwa sa ganun?
'pwede bang mainlove sa iyo?' - naalala mo yang tanong ko?...i want my heart back..:c